A Different Feeling

Shock, searching, disorganization, and reorganization, these are the stages we go through when we lose someone close to us. We grieve. But after every storm, the sky clears, and the sun shines again. It may not feel like it now, but the warmth always returns.

Life’s constant change is what brings balance to imbalance. It disrupts stagnation, forcing growth where things have become still. Just like nature, relationships are never static. Every relationship faces tests, moments that either strengthen the bond or break it. These are the points where we choose to stand strong together or stand strong apart. And there’s no limit to how many tests we will face. Ours was no different. We were stretched to see how far we could go, to test the depth of our connection. We both know how that ended. But today is not about that. Today, the feeling is different.

We got the chance to talk again, after that last conversation that laid bare the state of our relationship. This time, it was about acknowledging what had already been set in motion. I knew it was truly over the moment you said, "I got used to you not being here." Some words cut right through you, and that one did. But unlike before, it didn’t shake me as much. I had already begun to accept your decision and reorganize myself.

Rather than dwelling on what was or what should have been, rather than holding onto things beyond my control, I chose to embrace the moment. And in that moment, I heard something I had not in a long time your genuine laugh. I saw a real smile. And, as always, you had words of wisdom to share. I hope when you read this, you remember "not a bad breakup call" and smile, even if it is just for a second.

This is not at goodbye. It’s see you later. What we will be when we cross paths again, friends, strangers, something in between, that is a story only time can tell. But no matter what, I wish you happiness. I hope you find the joy you deserve.