TO YOU

It has been a while since I last wrote down my feelings. Not because I had moved on, healed, or forgotten, you know I am still in that process. Not a day goes by that I do not think of you. But it is a feeling I have learned I must live with. We are on different paths now, and instead of calling, texting, or holding onto hopes that may never be, I have chosen to deal with it this way. For now, this is the only way I know how to communicate with you.

It has been a few weeks, maybe months. The last time I tried to speak with you, I came with the excuse of “checking up on you.” What a dumb lie, the truth is, I missed you. I had been holding myself back for so long, but at that moment, I could not anymore. Still, I understood your reaction, it was another dawning for me.

I will not keep you with long stories. I just want to say I am sorry, sorry for letting you down. I understand now that words are powerful and should never be misused. And as much as words carry weight, actions are just as powerful, because they prove whether those words were true.

So I am choosing to prove mine through my actions by improving myself every day - Physically, Mentally, Spiritually, and Emotionally. This is a promise I have made to myself, a way of showing that the time you spent in my life was not all for nothing. Thank you for teaching me that lesson.

Even though this chapter hurts, I hold onto God’s promise: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11). That gives me peace, to know that both of us are walking toward the futures we were meant for.


I wish you nothing but the best in everything you do. I’ll always be rooting for you. ❤

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