The Space Between Us

Now it’s evident that we are no longer together, but every part of me still longs to talk to you. I want to hear from you, to know how you are doing, how your day is going, to check in and make sure you are okay. But at this point, I did not really know what to do. Should I call?  Should I not? Should I send a text instead? An email, maybe? What form of communication, if any, would feel right?

Even if I found an answer, I still had to ask myself what state are you in right now? Would hearing from me be too soon, or maybe too late? How would you feel if my name popped up on your screen? Would it bring comfort, or would it only make things harder? Would I be holding you back from moving on, or have you already moved on completely?

There are so many thoughts, so many unanswered questions. But what I do know is that I do not want to live with regrets, wondering about the things I should have said or done. So instead, I choose to put it all here. This is my way of airing out my thoughts, my space to remember, to reflect, and to speak the words I can not say out loud.

This is The Space Between, the place where my thoughts of you live, even when we are apart.


Location: London, UK

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