The Gift of You: A Story of Love, Loss, and Gratitude

They say we learn lessons from the experiences we have. Some are good, some are painful and so might wish to forget. But everything in life happens for a reason. Life is a constant flow of change, never stagnant. People come into our lives, some stay and some leave, some stay longer than others, but what truly matters is the impact they leave behind.

You came into my life, and you stayed. And by staying gave me something I never even thought to seek. Though distance separated us, it always felt like you were right next to me. I got to live in a world where I could turn to one person and the rest of the world would stand still. Someone I could completely be myself with. Adam and Eve were both naked and unashamed, until the moment Adam sinned, instantly they saw their nakedness and ran to hide. For most moments, I was Adam, you gave me no reason to hide, everything felt right with you. You became my safe space. You were my soulmate.

It is said that one of the purpose of  soulmates is help us grow, to challenge us become the best versions of ourselves. You did not just give me a safe space, you helped me find myself, You showed me my strengths and my weaknesses, pointed my flaws and reminded me of the person I could be, the person I should be.

When you said you were leaving, I did not know how to receive it, I was torn in two. One part of me to fight for you, to make you stay. The other tried to forget you, tried to erase you from my life. At first, I chose to hold on, believing that I could get you back, everything would go back to the way it was. But maybe that was the problem, going  back. We needed to move forward, yet I failed to understand that we drifted apart, that healing and time were needed to find our way again. The moment I realized it was truly over was when you said  “I have gotten used to you not being here”.

It took some time but I came to understand two things. Love cannot be forced, by trying to make you stay, I was holding on to something that had already changed. “If you love someone, you must let them go, if they are truly yours, they will find their way back to you”. The second, trying to forget you, that would mean erasing everything good you brought into my life, the lessons, the laughter, your beautiful smile and gaze, the moments where the world disappeared and it was just us. It would mean pretending that the time we shared together had no meaning, And that is not true.

So instead, I choose to remember. To cherish every experience, every lesson, and every moment we had together. I choose gratitude, for you, for us and for the love we shared. I only hope in some way, I was able to give what you gave me, true love.

Location: London, UK

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